To Crib or Not to Crib
This is one of those moments when I just want to write something.. I dont know what to write or why I want to write..
Arent there times when you just desperately want to talk to someone, then you start going over the people in your list whom you can talk to.. and it turns out you dont want to talk to any of them.
You just want to talk but dont know what to say and its so difficult to just pick up the phone and call someone and say "Hi, I want to talk, but I have nothing to say!"
Wow! I'd really bow to the person on the other end, if he/she is not exasperated and doesnt bang the phone down (if its over phone) or make a face if the poor soul has to do it in person..
So, any way to cut the long story short, this is one of those times. And, its such a relief to be able to just talk nonsense and not have your computer make faces at you!
Now the question is why cant one be happy just talking to oneself?
You can expect maximum understanding from yourself, specially when it comes to such emotions which are hard to put into words
One very valid and I think the primary reason is that its kind off loony to talk to yourself.. once in a while is fine, but it'll be really bad if it becomes a habit!
Just imagine! your friend comes and asks you if you want to watch a movie and you tell them, "sorry yaar I'm kind of in a middle of a discussion with my self"!!
Another reason could be attributed to the famous saying, "Man is a social animal" blah blah blah..
Blah because this social animal thing just puts so much unnecessary pressure to be social all the time! I'd like to get a break from it and be able to talk to my self without bothering about whether it conflicts with my being an enough of a social animal!
Talking about unnecessary pressure, another one I just hate is having to live up to your own image! Its just so frustrating at times..
Like a serious person "S" is expected to be serious all the time. So if the "S"goes to a party with friends, he/she might want to act crazy and dance his feet off (I'm not sure if that even makes sense) but, the "image" of the serious person would be lurking behind him, constantly bogging him down from acting out to his impulse! and not just that, everyone around "S" would also expect him to be serious, and not really encourage crazy behavior. And its not just about serious people.
It so holds true if you have a party animal image too. A party animal "P" can just not sit quietly at a party and enjoy the music! No! everyone will ask, "What happened 'P'?".. "I don't believe it, you are sitting down calmly! how can it be!".. the worst one is "Whats wrong, is something bothering you, 'P'?" OMG!
Well I think I've cribbed my way out of the strange mood :)
Thank god the computer does not crib back!
P.S: If after reading this you are tempted to relate it back to some thing which happened some day and go like "Oh! So that's why she was acting so strange the other day" or something to that effect, Please dont! This is a work of fiction, and has not resemblance to any person living or dead :P
